Being gay and single in Seattle is not a fun experience. After the breakup (more on this in later blogs), I find myself single again.
I have to evaluate my feelings. I'm alone, and I feel sick. Is it I miss my ex (Mr. Perfect) or do I miss the idea of a relationship? I miss the daily emails that I sent him with a song of the day. The reading of the Sunday paper with him, trying to get him to understand the idea of rotating the piles between read and unread. The walks to Top Pot donuts.
Is it the loss of him specifically or the loss of having someone to share these moments?
This is my blog. It won't always be negative nor will it always be funny.; It will be real. My true feelings about relationships, and life in general.
I realize I'm not alone and breakups happen all the time. But that doesn't make me feel any better.
I'd like to share my feelings and experiences, but I also invite you to post comments. Maybe share your experiences, or tell me I'm all wet, or offer advice.
Alone, gay in Seattle is what this is all about. I'd like to say I'd post a comment every day or every week, but those of you that know me, know that I can't live with that kind of committment, maybe that's why I don't have a boyfriend anymore.
Anyway, lets do this together.
Until next time - Wise OUT.
4 comments:
I flip back and forth between finding being single liberating and depressing. When I can travel on a whim or pick any night I want to go out and socialize, I love it. When I want someone to go out with or someone to share an experience with, I find it a bit depressing. And the inevitable nights spent alone are hard sometimes. It isn't even the sex! It's just having someone to wake up to. You go Rick...being that single boy again might just be a great thing (right up until it isn't!)
You don't have to be gay to feel this way. I'm sure that the majority of the population feels this way as well, and the rest are just too busy trying to make ends meet.
My advice would be to try to find something that you're truly passionate about and do it. You may not find that special someone, but you'll be happier just doing what you love.
That's my two cents' worth. Unfortunately, two cents buys you nothing in today's market.
Seattle is not a city that it is easy to be single in. You have to really put yourself out there and hope you can find someone......sometimes you do, other times you don't. Can lightening strike twice? Will you find what you are looking for, yes. You have to NOT compromise who you are when you look or when you find someone. Any experience or relationship should leave you a better person. I am, and I thank you, here on your blog. I love you and I miss the walks to top pot and the reading the paper....all of it.
I miss you, R___Y W__E. Sorry we didnt work.
Signed Mr. "NOT" Perfect.
Well, not so anonymous says...take heart in all you have done for people; all those who are/were friends and all those other folks, too. Often, what one searches for least can surprisingly give the greatest pleasure. I remember with fondness how you added humor and interest to our many conversation and sometime meetings over the years! Remember, commitment comes from the heart as well as being a state of mind. Engaging in those interests you most enjoy is sound advise. Hey, when one gets to my stage in life, memories become a good companion - you aren't there yet! Good Luck from an old friend.
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